StageiiiChrista Maria on location, used for multiple scenes.
StageIVChrista Maria on location for transforming and reshaping scene.
LA to Lanzarote
Why do we cling to our opinions and behaviours so tenaciously after they are formed? Do they may protect us, keep us safe, literally, help us survive? The more threatened we feel, the more we circle the wagons of our opinions and behaviours to keep ourselves safe. Nothing about behaviour change is simple. It’s a tough, process oriented challenge to move the behaviour needle even a little. The least effective change strategies hinge on fear, guilt, shame, and regret.
Christa Maria suffered for 16 years from the eating disorder bulimia nervosa, which is a mental illness, not a lifestyle choice. It begins with overwhelming feelings of low self-esteem, fear, guilt, shame, loneliness, depression, and anxiety. Interestingly, these are the same psychological symptoms of trauma, abuse, and neglect. A preoccupation with food is an attempt to numb all those feelings! Her self-awareness, self-love, talents, wisdom, empathy, and compassion have been in cold storage from the age of 13 to 29 years, until 2001. I never met a female where I felt this much potential, but very little education and social skills. She wanted to shift, but was certain nothing can safe her.
Over the years working with her she learned healthy boundaries, honouring her heart, and recognising her authentic-self. She healed and developed. Eventually she came to believe that she has value to offer. She became present in the world as a woman.
“Art is a wound turned into light.” ~ Georges Braque